Options Vs Choices

Options...hmmm...They have been the drive for Choices. Choices then lead us to prioritize. They form an integral part of our life. The way we chose is boundary line of desirables and undesirables in our life. One may chose Manmohan Singh over so many other eligible political leaders (options) to 'throw' one's opinion Here, the great or not so great 'Muffed Leader' can be seen as choice of vote among other options.
Consider a Cartesian quadrant of X & y axis where X is the option and Y is choice. Cumulatively they define the Priorities which is nothing but the intercept of Options and Choices.
On Quadrant I (+X), we might have infinite options. While on Quadrant III, we might be sort of options infinitely Y axis may be defined similarly with the choices.

Our life is actually governed by the interactive plays among these options and choices- priorities as resultant. Option when chosen presents us with Priority which eventually decides the way we are going to skim or get skimmed out of life. Choices are always subjective, and variable on the interactive forces of both internal and external environment. Further, a Subject may negate the worthiness or sanctity of a Choice later.

Options have the privilege to offer us Choices. On the other, Choices have the essential potential to demarcate our destiny. They can make and mar. Tread meticulously while exercising one!! Make one for Peace

Sacchaiyan badalti hain
Jo maayne badalte hain inke
jaane ye kaisi paribhasha hai
addhora hai jisse ek ek shabd aaj bhi

A ChitChat with Within

Dear Me,

The way you know me is me being not so emotional at most of the times. You know the underlying reason for this as often repeated by me. My experiences over past 10-12 years coupled with theoretical learning
have positioned my mind at a plane where I wish to be absolute in my rationale. Yet I talk about 'rationale'. You see how formidable this position is! Even though I can not attain, the feeling of this absoluteness is too tempting and alluring. The joy of my life is learning. Even realizing a widely-known-learning infuses happiness of no small magnitude. I don't claim to know the universe, nor do I wish so. What I claim is my due share of mind-detachment sprouting from the seed of a vast knowledge tree. Life for me has all capacities of dawning heaven or hell on this earth. There are determining factors which are driving this process. Some are tangible, some intangible. Some controlled, some uncontrolled.

I would suggest lets drive our life towards this plane where every piece, every variety of life is the realization of learning. A life which has challenges to drive us for solutions. Solutions that fill our life with happiness: a goal, a purpose, a god in itself! Once we realize this unbiasedness, factors of disturbance would reduce while those of happiness would increase proportionately.

At this plane, I would say I have enjoyed your attachment. However there have been times where we have been so exhausted in our problems that we have denied to move towards the solution. Compromises have
been unnecessarily delayed. I would say these experiences have enlightened the life-approach and consequently enlightened the horizon of happiness.

Your thought has always enchanted me and so bewitching has been your writing! This time I see your process upgraded from Pentium to Core-i! I am delighted to see the elevation. Yet remorseful when I realize
this is the outcome of your shattered-emotions. Nonetheless, Iwould appreciate this duelling approach of yours as it leads us to the realization of the Enlightenment!

 You have always been a pride in me (which I have ever successfully hidden)!. You are the one I have never encountered anybody like. Having you so close to me is where this pride comes from, to move the life & let the life move on!!

Electronic 'Khat'

This piece of writing is not a typical writing but is a part of mail! The mail which I sent to one of my favorite juniors during my heavenly college days. I sent it for the purpose as mentioned in the mail below. Please read through to enjoy :)

Date: 5^th November, 2009

Time: 4.30 am

Before going through the main body, please read the legal warning!

Dear Vineet,

Once again I am writing at this juncture of day and night when you would be floating far in your dream even beyond your own conscious imaginary horizon. As glad I am as you would be to know that this piece of writing is just 4 u, just as you have been craving for more of my articles!!

As there have been unexpected and unsolicited (and sometimes unwelcome too from my side!! :) spectral appearances of yours which have often frightened and paradoxically lured me with that genuinely contagious smile of yours, probing me: "have I disturbed you sir?" (Even when you knew that I indeed had been!). "No, not at all, come in dear!" is my usual reply you must agree. How else would you expect me to act? I know even if I said yes, you would have broken into. Doing so, I am merely saving the assets of both IIIT and Mine!! Don’t worry, not less is your contribution towards this saving J
I am not intending to write any fictional or scholarly article here. I am writing all which is flowing into my indented mind through the keyboard. You see people are not just subject to others mind (perception), but sometimes they r subject to the whims of keyboard, as is your case right now. Your entity is currently subject to a keyboard. The keyboard in consideration is outrunning the pace of my mind. And so u cannot be safe while you get victim of the maize of alphabets which may combine to form most beautiful and sweet words and the most abhorring and erratic at the same time. Doesn’t it sound terrific to be subdued by something which we know is the progeny of ourselves? But this is the fact. Eventually you can look around to validate the worth of my previous sentence. Everywhere today we are subject to things which we have ourselves created. Yet there is no trace of a perfect controlled system, even though we make the (fake) control systems. Do rationalize the pros n cons of this hypothesis. I believe, my control system is getting uncontrolled now, and contrary to my wish to write further, I m forced to stand by this system of mine for the time being. Till then bye.....
Hope you enjoy reading through :)

Regards,

Praveer...:)...:)

Legal Warning: The purpose of this piece of writing is completely humorous and purely subjective. any cut to the quick, even exceptional, may be deemed as serious blasphemy to the author, thereby leading to the liability of a Treat at Malik or Chandi, whichever the defaulter wishes to prefer; the timing of which may be fixed by mutual consent of the defaulter and defaulted. Any confusion, indigestion and/or ambiguity shall completely lie within the jurisdiction of Room No: 119, IIIT Allahabad till 19th May 2010.

Google Hacking

Google is a pretty powerful search tool. You knew that. You can use it to find information, but you can also use it to find downloadable MP3s, books, videos, and other items. We're going to assume you're just looking for legally available downloads, but the truth of the matter is if someone's posted an MP3 (copyrighted or not) to their web page, Google can find it.

METHOD I

Try a few of these searches ( type words bellow on google search):

* intitle:"Index of" passwords modified
* allinurl:auth_user_file.txt
* allinurl: admin mdb
* inurl:passlist.txt
* "Index of /backup"
* Amex Numbers: 300000000000000..399999999999999
* MC Numbers: 5178000000000000..5178999999999999
* visa 4356000000000000..4356999999999999

or,

* "parent directory " /appz/ -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums
* "parent directory " DVDRip -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums
* "parent directory "Xvid -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums
* "parent directory " Gamez -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums
* "parent directory " MP3 -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums
* "parent directory " Name of Singer or album -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

Change the word after the "parent directory" to whatever you want and you will get a lot of stuff.


METHOD 2

put this string in google search:

?intitle:index.of? mp3


You only need add the name of the song/artist/singer.

example: ?intitle:index.of? mp3 jackson


METHOD 3

put this string in google search:

inurl:microsoft filetype:iso

You can change the string to watever you want, ex. microsoft to adobe, iso to zip etc…

"# -FrontPage-" inurl:service.pwd

Frontpage passwords.. very nice clean search results listing !!

"AutoCreate=TRUE password=*"

This searches the password for "Website Access Analyzer", a Japanese software that creates webstatistics. For those who can read Japanese, check out the author's site at: http://www.coara.or.jp/~passy/

"http://*:*@www" domainname

This is a query to get inline passwords from search engines (not just Google), you must type in the query followed with the the domain name without the .com or .net

"http://*:*@www" brazzer

Another way is by just typing

"http://bob:bob@www"

"sets mode: +k"

This search reveals channel keys (passwords) on IRC as revealed from IRC chat logs.

allinurl: admin mdb

Not all of these pages are administrator's access databases containing usernames, passwords and other sensitive information, but many are!


allinurl:auth_user_file.txt

DCForum's password file. This file gives a list of (crackable) passwords, usernames and email addresses for DCForum and for DCShop (a shopping cart program(!!!). Some lists are bigger than others, all are fun, and all belong to googledorks. =)


intitle:"Index of" config.php

This search brings up sites with "config.php" files. To skip the technical discussion, this configuration file contains both a username and a password for an SQL database. Most sites with forums run a PHP message base. This file gives you the keys to that forum, including FULL ADMIN access to the database.

eggdrop filetype:user user

These are eggdrop config files. Avoiding a full-blown descussion about eggdrops and IRC bots, suffice it to say that this file contains usernames and passwords for IRC users.

intitle:index.of.etc

This search gets you access to the etc directory, where many many many types of password files can be found. This link is not as reliable, but crawling etc directories can be really fun!

filetype:bak inurl:"htaccess|passwd|shadow|htusers"

This will search for backup files (*.bak) created by some editors or even by the administrator himself (before activating a new version).
Every attacker knows that changing the extenstion of a file on a webserver can have ugly consequences.
Let's pretend you need a serial number for windows xp pro.
In the google search bar type in just like this - "Windows XP Professional" 94FBR
the key is the 94FBR code.. it was included with many MS Office registration codes so this will help you dramatically reduce the amount of 'fake' porn sites that trick you.
or if you want to find the serial for winzip 8.1 - "Winzip 8.1" 94FBR

List of few more Searches:

* inurl:/db/main.mdb |ASP-Nuke passwords
* filetype:cfm "cfapplication |ColdFusion source with potential passwords name" password
* filetype:pass |dbman credentials pass intext:userid
* allinurl:auth_user_file.txt |DCForum user passwords
* eggdrop filetype:user user |Eggdrop IRC user credentials
* filetype:ini inurl:flashFXP.ini |FlashFXP FTP credentials
* filetype:url +inurl:"ftp://" |FTP bookmarks cleartext passwords
+inurl:"@"
* inurl:zebra.conf intext: |GNU Zebra passwords
password -sample -test
-tutorial –download
* filetype:htpasswd htpasswd |HTTP htpasswd Web user credentials
* intitle:"Index of" ".htpasswd" |HTTP htpasswd Web user credentials
"htgroup" -intitle:"dist"
-apache -htpasswd.c
* intitle:"Index of" ".htpasswd" |HTTP htpasswd Web user credentials
htpasswd.bak
* "http://*:*@www" bob:bob |HTTP passwords (bob is a sample username)
* "sets mode: +k" |IRC channel keys (passwords)
* "Your password is * |Remember IRC NickServ registration passwords
this for later use"
* signin filetype:url |JavaScript authentication credentials
* LeapFTP intitle:"index.of./" |LeapFTP client login credentials
sites.ini modified
* inurl:lilo.conf filetype:conf |LILO passwords
password -tatercounter2000
-bootpwd –man
* filetype:config config intext: |Mcft .NET application credentials
appSettings "User ID"
* filetype:pwd service |Mcft FrontPage Service Web passwords
* intitle:index.of |Mcft FrontPage Web credentials
administrators.pwd
* "# -FrontPage-" |Mcft FrontPage Web passwords
inurl:service.pwd
ext:pwd inurl:_vti_pvt inurl: |Mcft FrontPage Web passwords
(Service | authors | administrators)
* inurl:perform filetype:ini |mIRC nickserv credentials
* intitle:"index of" intext: |mySQL database credentials
connect.inc
* intitle:"index of" intext: |mySQL database credentials
globals.inc
* filetype:conf oekakibbs |Oekakibss user passwords
* filetype:dat wand.dat |Opera‚ ÄúMagic Wand‚Äù Web credentials
* inurl:ospfd.conf intext: |OSPF Daemon Passwords
password -sample -test
-tutorial –download
* index.of passlist |Passlist user credentials
* inurl:passlist.txt |passlist.txt file user credentials
* filetype:dat "password.dat" |password.dat files
* inurl:password.log filetype:log |password.log file reveals usernames,
|passwords,and hostnames
* filetype:log inurl:"password.log" |password.log files cleartext
|passwords
* inurl:people.lst filetype:lst |People.lst generic password file
* intitle:index.of config.php |PHP Configuration File database
|credentials
* inurl:config.php dbuname dbpass |PHP Configuration File database
|credentials
* inurl:nuke filetype:sql |PHP-Nuke credentials
* filetype:conf inurl:psybnc.conf |psyBNC IRC user credentials
"USER.PASS="
* filetype:ini ServUDaemon |servU FTP Daemon credentials
* filetype:conf slapd.conf |slapd configuration files root password
* inurl:"slapd.conf" intext: |slapd LDAP credentials
"credentials" -manpage
-"Manual Page" -man: -sample
* inurl:"slapd.conf" intext: |slapd LDAP root password
"rootpw" -manpage
-"Manual Page" -man: -sample
* filetype:sql "IDENTIFIED BY" –cvs |SQL passwords
* filetype:sql password |SQL passwords
* filetype:ini wcx_ftp |Total Commander FTP passwords
* filetype:netrc password |UNIX .netrc user credentials
* index.of.etc |UNIX /etc directories contain
|various credential files
* intitle:"Index of..etc" passwd |UNIX /etc/passwd user credentials
* intitle:index.of passwd |UNIX /etc/passwd user credentials
passwd.bak
* intitle:"Index of" pwd.db |UNIX /etc/pwd.db credentials
* intitle:Index.of etc shadow |UNIX /etc/shadow user credentials
* intitle:index.of master.passwd |UNIX master.passwd user credentials
* intitle:"Index of" spwd.db |UNIX spwd.db credentials
passwd -pam.conf
* filetype:bak inurl:"htaccess| |UNIX various password file backups
passwd|shadow|htusers
* filetype:inc dbconn |Various database credentials
* filetype:inc intext:mysql_ |Various database credentials, server names
connect
* filetype:properties inurl:db |Various database credentials, server names
intext:password
* inurl:vtund.conf intext:pass –cvs |Virtual Tunnel Daemon passwords
* inurl:"wvdial.conf" intext: |wdial dialup user credentials
"password"
* filetype:mdb wwforum |Web Wiz Forums Web credentials
* "AutoCreate=TRUE password=*" |Website Access Analyzer user passwords
* filetype:pwl pwl |Windows Password List user credentials
* filetype:reg reg +intext: |Windows Registry Keys containing user
"defaultusername" intext: |credentials
"defaultpassword"
* filetype:reg reg +intext: |Windows Registry Keys containing user
"internet account manager" |credentials
* "index of/" "ws_ftp.ini" |WS_FTP FTP credentials
"parent directory"
* filetype:ini ws_ftp pwd |WS_FTP FTP user credentials
* inurl:admin filetype: |asp Generic userlist files
inurl:userlist |
* inurl:php inurl: |Half-life statistics file, lists username and
hlstats intext: |other information
Server Username |
* filetype:ctl |
inurl:haccess. |Mcft FrontPage equivalent of htaccess
ctl Basic |shows Web user credentials
* filetype:reg |
reg intext: |Mcft Internet Account Manager can
* "internet account manager" |reveal usernames and more
filetype:wab wab |Mcft Outlook Express Mail address
|books
* filetype:mdb inurl:profiles |Mcft Access databases containing
|profiles.
* index.of perform.ini |mIRC IRC ini file can list IRC usernames and
|other information
* inurl:root.asp?acs=anon |Outlook Mail Web Access directory can be
|used to discover usernames
* filetype:conf inurl:proftpd. |PROFTP FTP server configuration file
conf –sample |reveals
|username and server information
* filetype:log username putty |PUTTY SSH client logs can reveal
|usernames
|and server information
* filetype:rdp rdp |Remote Desktop Connection files reveal user
|credentials
* intitle:index.of |UNIX bash shell history reveals commands
.bash_history |typed at a bash command prompt; usernames
|are often typed as argument strings
* intitle:index.of |UNIX shell history reveals commands typed at
.sh_history |a shell command prompt; usernames are
|often typed as argument strings
* "index of " lck |Various lock files list the user currently using
|a file
* +intext:webalizer +intext: |Webalizer Web statistics page lists Web user-
Total Usernames +intext: |names and statistical information
"Usage Statistics for"
* filetype:reg reg HKEY_ |Windows Registry exports can reveal
CURRENT_USER |username usernames and other information

For More download the PDF:
http://www.mediafire.com/file/dxob0oyxp9d0y17/Google-Hacking.pdf

Hope you have enjoyed reading !

A Trip To Love

Distant in the remote village
I see an old man
Farming through the burrows
And sweating to the Peace
Dreamy are his tranquil eyes
Perhaps with a long cherished
Dream come true
All around he looks
To make sure
He has fulfilled all his desires
Seems perfect in the evening of his life
To gather what he ever cared
Towards the Banyan tree
Just by the farm, he is burrowing
He looks very often
With a caring and protecting concern
As he gets the same with love
From an old lady- his Lady Love

Fallen pieces of life yet constructing together

Atheism

Nobody to judge, nobody to justify,
Something to say,
Something to proclaim!
With senses to err, Senses to rectify,
Here I stand yet nonsense to explain,
WHY I AM AN ATHEIST!!

Revelations impressed inside struggle
Witnessed dueling of unknown magnitude,
Many measurable yet more immeasurable,
I experienced with highest altitude!

May arguments touch your rationale
To substantiate my stand
Or maybe they hint at my shallowness
To prove my worth around!

LOGIC MAY UNFOLD HEREIN-"Logical consistency rises to the illogical consistency"

Emotion in Transit

Much convinced as I was,
Now it seems to be overshadowed,
Not by anything else but 'YOU'!
Yes, I feel to be shrouded by your conviction!

Worry not over my existence,
Entity of mine holds greater now!
Yet holding the dilemma,
What if I am chasing my own essence!

Wonder if I had to be dual again,
Or am I destroying the singularity of mine?
The questions and answers are yet to traverse an untraveled way,
Possibly that of never felt!
Feel I am being reborn,
Yet the feeling of being alive is changing fast this time.
Afraid as I am!
Should it not change the life itself!

Or who cares....
Even if does so!
The course is so promising,
That I am holding back to 'HOLD BACK'...!!

MACHINES, METRO AND ORGANIZATIONS

Come to Metropolitans, Come to think of extra modern prototypes of high-storied buildings…That might even cost you your life, not to talk about your senses, dare you stare for 2-3 minutes amid the seemingly devouring army of auto-vehicles, another-rooted-characteristic of a Metro, specially at peak hours. They are army of machines trampling and killing at randomized pace. To be noted here is the course which they follow: a certain course which gets uncertain if the impact of that trample at randomized pace gets significant. Yet, the mystery of life is so luring that the fleet ignores the shedding off of one of its machines and moves on.
Now from the randomized pace and space, let’s move to the place which is a collective being and also the confluence of a good number of those machines from the fleet. Its magnetic force keeps its machines controlled and stuck to a routine which ensures the former’s own longevity. People not only automate their-controlled machines, but automate themselves as per the requirements of that Collective being better known as Organizations, of course with respect! These giants feed on the “resources”. They are many. One of them is HR.
The course is still the same. Machines keep eroding. Indeed they are subject to wear and tear!!

Wangdu’s Reflection in Rancho

Its 4.20 AM, and my urge to write is desperate. And when I am really writing something at this juncture of day and night, there has to be something irresistibly that important.
Much has been talked about and reviewed over the recent movie- 3 Idiots. The Director, Producer and Screen Play writer are among the most praised of the critics and reviewer. The lead role characters have also been reviewed and appreciated generously. Yet there is one thing which has eluded the nook of critics in the movie and which in fact has compelled me to consider for a write-up on the same. I have searched a considerable portion of digital media to confirm my conviction. All the time I have been negative.
This is about the character of Ranchod Das Shyamal Das Chanchad the lead character played by Aamir Khan. In the movie, this guy has been characterized by an impressive genuine look of innocence coupled with a surpassing talent and mind who has solutions for every problem. It is until the end of the movie, that we find the real name of this guy: Phunsuk Wangdu: a renowned Scientist. As per the story, this man went to ICE as pseudo Ranchod Das Chanchad. However he is a person who belongs to the mountains.
I came across with the video ‘Exclusive Styling of Amir Khan- Ghajini Se Idiot Tak’ on You Tube. This Video contains Amir Khan’s transformation from Gazani to 3 Idiots, from Hulk body to that of Idiot, precisely. He reveals his transformation along with the body language which he has put on throughout the movie especially to give the character of Rancho a look of genius and boyish at the IIM Bangalore Campus, mostly unconcerned about almost everything he does. And that has been successfully done not with the look alone but his attire as well. Look at the kind of T-shirts and Jeans he wears. As a matter of fact, these dresses were not purchased. “Actually we should not buy clothes…I strongly feel we should pick up clothes. For example, if you have a shirt which is two years old, I should take it from you…”, says Amir Khan. Oversized jeans and t-shirts are what have given him the look he is portraying in the movie.
However, willingly or unwillingly, he has done marvelous in the sense that he is carrying exactly the nerve of this character. Here is my point: throughout the movie, and even before we get the real identity, if we observe the role of Aamir Khan, he has outstandingly portrayed the role of a person who belongs to the mountain ranges, be that from Himachal, Tibet or North East. Here we have the most characterizing similarities in these people: they are genuinely simple, they carry an innocent look, they don’t get perturbed easily, their unusual dressing sense like low waist jeans, canvass shoes, unusual t-shirts which finally becomes fashion for the day and an ever-hanging bag around their shoulders. Now observe how Aamir Khan carries himself in the movie. His dressing in the movie, his body language, especially when Veeru Shahastrabuddhi drags him out of his cabin shows much of his innocence.
Now this is my personal opinion and association of the movie character to some specific traits, even though I have positively confirmed it with the people around me.
I have heard people say, “Rancho! You Rock!” However, I may prefer to claim, “Wangdu You are obviously unique!”…You got that…Right??

PARODY OF EXAMS

I flunked again. The papers seem invariably magical when I pass! Yet they don’t appear cruel when I fail either! It has been the destiny of my resources to lead me to the same Thelsic direction always. Through past experiences, I have now reached a conviction point of being called the top from bottom. The excitement of seeing unknown and expectation of an easy labor vapors with the aftermath of encountering the Notice Board and getting to know that once again I am not misplaced!!
The process of these aftermaths; namely melancholy, happiness and excitement starts much before we write all those papers. This is even before we attend our first class room course. The root trace is not at the obvious expression when we see the results. Our priorities define us. So is done with our expectations from our Academics. Our environment, both internal and external, moulds the way we are going to gush out feelings at the end result. Here I am writing my feelings after encountering the Result Notice Board recently. I don’t mean anything personal here to anyone or to myself either!

We heard that the result was out! And so we decided for a too short journey: that of around 900 meter walk from the Hostel to the Admin Building where the Notice Board was supposed to show us our own “Academic Faces”. Being afraid of the ambiguity of this term, I must clarify Academic Face first. By this I don’t mean any allusion to our real Academic Group, but how well we have steered ourselves on the Curriculum.
Anyway, we started for this too short journey. The journey seemed too short, yet implied a bigger shocking and hilarious implications for people. The chilling breeze seemed no hindrance to this Great March. Great as it is for the same reason discussed above. Speculative discussions seemed to fuel our walk. There was no haste. We had all the time on earth, yet nobody could have longed for a shorter distance under the circumstances. As we approached the Admin Building, it seemed no longer the same. It stood with greater grandeur tonight. Perhaps it had absorbed the merit and charisma of all the candidates for the day and was reflecting the same tonight! Amidst these thoughts we had entered the Building with more fervency than ever. And now were standing in front of the Notice Board which definitely epitomizes the faculty of all the Students and Faculty; as it showcases the caliber of either party. So to say, this Notice Board was personifying us that time. Our eyes were scrolling through the papers hustling on the Board, when we saw the one we were looking for: just one paper stood more magnificent than others. Focus as natural went to the most lucrative and feasible option, Charles Darwin once again had proved his evolutionary theory right. This paper on the Notice Board had occupied the left corner and contained the decided fate of six months (3rd Semester) of students, rich and poor, all alike. Nonetheless, the fate had dawned upon us tonight again. This time a great number of people were destined to the hilarious side while few, just three to be accurate, were blacked out at the horizontal end of the row where the Cumulative Grades were meant to show up. However, if the candidate failed in a subject, his or her (which unfortunately never happens to be the case!) CGPA was blacked out. My eyes started scrutinizing those three Black Lists when I struck upon my name. As usual, I was placed substantially right this time too. My name appeared in one of those Black Lists!! Unusually, nothing seemed odd. Everything went as they did earlier: Same people, same discussions, same Notice Board, unflinching veneration for the respective Faculty Members; most unusually for the ones who had discredited me as well. I was in no mood to spoil the otherwise jocular mood over this slight topic of pass and fail as if I would have been bestowed a magic wand, had I passed!!
However there was something to rejoice definitely. People came with negative anticipation were jubilant as their fate had turned into feat. This was good enough excuse of merry-making and a real one too. We started considering the probable chances of Partying, courtesy good CGPA of some of our batch mates. It got more amusing as we kept on counting the number of boozers in the group who would soon join us!!
On the other hand, my failure was enough to fade a good portion of enjoyment as they began to consider the pros and cons of probable reasons why I would have been thrown to hapless lot once again. I would like not to write anything about those accusations. Whatever be the reasons, I had thankfully, I guess so, flunked again and people seemed to air the feeling of resentment as much as possible. They too got a good reason to believe I had all the reason to be happier now. It is not surprising. When we encounter something bad in our life, people do care more about us. I had this opportunity right now due and was enjoying it without any qualms. Though martyred, I seemed to be hero among the group. Affection flowed profuse. Material support followed the emotional one. Thanks to my name in the Black List!! Immediately after leaving the Admin Building, I was treated well with a small party of “my choice” on the way back to Hostel. So much so, three eggs were purchased to take care of my supposed gloom when I was going to be alone in my room when everybody else went to their rooms and I yearned for a delicacy after midnight. I thankfully accepted and wondered if my friends exceeded the wrath of my Faculty who flunked me, as the zero had exceeded by one from the former and had changed the shape too, that of ovular!!!
As I am going to end this hilarious chapter of a serio-comic day in my life, I must hint that I would not be alone swoting to clear the respective back papers which I had just flunked. Rather more efforts would be contributed from the Faculties who flunk students, and that starts much before the latter does so with their preparation. The efforts might be hinted at the formation of a completely new set of Question Papers, the necessary preparation for the ensuing Back Paper Exam and then in the process of evaluation and so on. I think this is enough to scare a logical faculty!! You got the last word…right?? Bingo!!!
Bow to the support of friends and toast to the Faculty who are going to toil with me as an aftermath of this 3rd Semester Exam Results….!!!

Mystery Continues: Position of an Unknown Chaos inside a Confused Chaos!!

Wish I would be “Neo”!! I would have been able to comprehend the depth of the veil of fallacy. World as it seems or rather the perceptions as we might call them, seems too slight for me when I vicariously take the tour of what might have been an excruciating deal for even Neo himself. However, I wonder that I might not be dealing with the same fallacy and reality vis-à-vis this silver-screen character. Sometimes I feel in the whirl of Duality, on the other sometimes I feel being a Unified One…..connected not only to the ambiguous Livings but to whatever is obvious to my so called scope of Imagination. Smallest particles inside rebel against me defying my command and leading to the Duality of my mind: A complete chaos inside creating an Independent Function of Me as a whole. How shocking then everything feels!! The perceptions out there, do they feel the same as I do?? Do they feel association same way?? Are they fighting the inside chaos in similar way?? More I may continue to think; more the imagination ceases to produce any further trace of solutions.
The same has been a formidable question for the generations across and even before the civilizations. From the time which goes mystical as in reference due to the same ambiguity and fallacy of our mind and terms. Before we could define what Life is, we better be in a position to define the term definition itself. And even before that the system which decides or interprets all these. Precisely then we will be standing still in the no-men’s land.
Life as has an unimaginable depth of mysteries, so as death, just the counterpart of the former. Sages, Scholars, Renaissance Intellectuals and the modern scientists have waded their life with the best efforts they could and have contributed enormously about their encounter and experiences of life and death. Different schools of thoughts and philosophies have come up in support. Still the mystery continues!! Yet what we have got is volumes of treatises and works which we might call as having been scholarly written. Also as byproducts, the civilization has seen tools of sophistications which again our system might well call it by the term of “Inventions”.
We often hear about several Constructs in various aspects of both physical and mental sciences. But the constructs which we prepare for a bigger cause are themselves dependent upon the caliber of Mind. As we started that everything starts with the mind and ends where its scope ends, so whatever we may frame are logically inconsistent with a more logical system which we may not call a system at all as that might be beyond the scope of our mind! However we can not deny the existence of such a system. Then is it not the fallacy and veil under which all the constructs were ever made and that keep all our theories and definitions on till today?? We need to give a deep thought over this. We know for sure that the argument given is absolutely true and can be verified by various experiments with shockingly naked facts coming up. However, this is the fragility of our Mind System that is hindering us.
The ancient texts and scriptures are full of explanations, discussions and references that the real knowledge can be only gained through our internal senses and not when we think logically and take the assistance our so called brain. The true knowledge can be gained only when we shut ourselves from the external. On the other it is so absolute, subtle and arcane that it can not be expressed with the help of our existing senses. Nor can it be understood either!!

My argument here is not to show the truth but to lead ourselves to the truth; and this is possible only when we overlook the way we have been treading till now. To be more precise, we might come up with a solution which must be devoid of the characteristics which are most rooted in the present methodology, though we do call it scientific.
1. All our theories, postulates, hypothesis are the product of our “mind” which is still an unsolved mystery till date
2. No subtle difference between what is real and what is unreal
3. The same is true in the case of being alive and being lifeless
4. The language which we use in expressing our thought is itself not strong enough to carry or express the stronger ideas of life and death.

To be Continued....
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Golden figs r the moments

spent with u

Casket of treasures r the feelings

Shared with u.

Nostalgic r those butiful days

Time had no meaning 4 us;

Where defied were the nature's lure

We escaped the definitive elements

Cocooned in our own self,

I long 4 those back days;

Wishing u b back in my arms

insular in our own world;

Where nothing has a purport

Not even the god,

Except I and u;

All spent, I m forlorn now;

Still waiting for the dooms,

When my life,

I could render to u.

IN HIS DEFIANCE!!

Pawn are we in the Hands
Of those wanton Gods
That shaketh not
Nor the Heart trembles
While throwing us
In the lot of hapless.

Wretched are the conditions
We need to survive in
No account is given
Nor the purport of this entity;
A mind system assigned which
Goes not in accordance
Conflicts are there inside
Conscious, subconscious and superconscious
Everywhere,
Accountability is there on each step ever taken
Not from His part
but from we pawns.

A game quary are we
Shot at His pleasure
Instantly or sometimes with leisure,
Varieties are there in the 'shot'
Some are for the essence of life
Some grieve that take the purpose out
Leaving an everlasting fresh scar
Even grievest are some which leave us numb

Ramifications might be many
The justifications are more
Based on the same conflicting mind system
To balance our Karma are we here for
Or to learn
Sometimes to attain the highest level of cyclic life
Or to get the Moksha!
Are we to decide
What are we here for
Or the One who has our rein?!?

If it's He
Then lets go for a mutiny
That overthrows the tyranny
Of this senseless Controller!
Lets not worship the Lustful
Nor should we beg
This superficially Superficial!!